Wednesday, November 11, 2009

What a Wry Story??

Some People Are Alive Only Coz Its Illegal To Kill Them.

Yez this statment surely explains what i got for those sly (Thats the least i can cl them in public :D) teachers of ma colg.I nevr knew being one of the union members of a colg urge you to listen to all those frivolous things the superiors gotoo say.

Everyting hapened after that week of hardwork of ours. i stil remember those sleepless nites nd those foodless days i had.It ws a week full of fun.Our colg call it "Cultural Week".whatver week it was, i like it for making me learn d lesson of how cheap lecturers of a colg can be , nd i hate it for making me hear to al those yaps of the lecturers.

It ws 4th nov,the day wen those dancers of our college had to compete. If i remember rite, i Guess we had around 18 teams for the competition. Fortunately or Unfortunately i decided to watch the entire show.I was hapily sitting on d ground with ma seniors, juniors, and ma batchmates commenting nd making a space for ourselves.

I still remember a girl of some department running down al those stairs of our colg auditorium to me with a complain of the dance whose performanc was going rite thr on stage. aw! To do ma duty i had to take dat effort to make ma leg move who was hapily resting thr after that tired running race lik session in d morning which even included the serving of coffee to the so called lecturers of our colg.

The response i got from the superiors wen i put forward the complain made me pinch maself to see if am dreaming.The complain i put forward ws ignored very cunningly nd easily. Brushing off the entire episode of that favourism nd politics which hapend just before me for the sole reason that the dance performance was from the same department of that of the lecturer to whom i complained .

Feeling all ashamed to admit the fact that i was holding one of those top posts in union of THAT colege who suported such sly nd shameless lecturers, made the real egho in me restless.Fixing it all nd brushing off the entire episode i sat bak with ma friends to watch the show again.

Cultral week got over.. two days bak fortunately or unfortunately, i happen to go to that colg after that week of hardwork. The moment i entered ma bus i started students commenting on the cultural week, nd sme even giving a good feedback about the entire show.

In between those hapiness nd exitment something did trouble me inside. mayb that egho of mine wich bcme restless wen i had to suport the statment of that favoured lecturer that day.

I landed in that so called great college of mine.There was some song competion going on dat day, and i was chosen for hosting the entire show.while hosting i remember that same person whose favourism disturbed me coming ma side. Turning bak i started calling the next lot number nd i really did pretend to act as if i never saw her. while passing by, she stoped gazed at me nd asked me to meet her with the vcp of dat colg,and with the team who raised d cmplain against the dance of her department.

Ma egho bcme restles again nd kept on specifying the word "U Better React". I with the vcp, with the students who raised d cmplain met that so called lecturer. That shameless lady started her yap the moment we reached wich clearly xplained dat she got zero favourism towards dat peculiar dance team.

Yes!! ma egho cudn stand that statment wich made me react a bit high. Her tone of explaining was very sweeet intially , as time passed by it bcme harsh so did the tone of mine chang. Finally we with the teachers landed up in the box like rooom of the Principal.( To xplain the principal i just got i word "Diplomatic").

I Donno how zealous the teachers bcme. Taking it as an opurtunity to react, they made us all feel zombie nd zonked.I donno what a wry eldritch story that sly wrong headed coldhearted female made. She had that imperious tone of hers while xplainig it to the principal. I coldly listend to the entire thing, al confused but stil with scrutiny.I am pretty sure she made this eldritch story with such earnest that i cud see dose glow in her eyes after narrating the entire thing.

All i had was a glimpse about the entire story. But i reacted with wrath once i understood the conclusion of hers. The conclusion dat convinced princi about the favourism i had towards that dance team and the irresponsibilty she faced during that so called cultural week(My face showed dat cold xpression of mine wich changed to immense wrath).

Understanding how egregious a lecturer can be, How imperious a lecturer can be, how alienated a lecturer can make a student feel made me feel all ashamed to say am the Arts Club Secreatry Of dat collg.

Hearing the principal wrangle, and the students seeing me as a wretch made me feel all eldritch.

Walking out of that room wich made ma eyes red with those tears of mine,nd listening those words wich intended to console me made me all down.I thot of changing ma face expression nd i walked towards the hall to host the remaining competitons(hoping atleast that wud change ma mood). On ma way i saw that friend of mine who always hear those live complains i make about those cheap inner politics that go on in dat colg walkin towards me.Wen i started to xplain the entire episode, seeing ma red eyes with tears al over, she tapped me at the bak and she said

"This is not the first time honey!! Our colg is just like dat... Jus a year more!! leave it"

 I Hugged her tite nd we walked together towards that hall to see those cmpetitions.
On our way bak , all she had to say was about her weekend plans with me wich surely made me smile.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

I Stil Dont Know

Channels having al those video clips wich made us al sentimental.
Newspapers having the most sensational news they could ever make.
Videos focusing either on the frozen corpse or some politician or celebrity who talks about y they think such an incident ocured.

Everythig seem to create sensation nd everythin seem to b sensational too that day.

' Dat Day ' referes to 30th sept 2009,the worrisome incident wich made us all emotional..The "Thekkadi Incident".. One of the worst incidents kerala have faced.

I kept on presing ma pgm button on ma remote to all those news channels. I cud see news channelz even having debate on the topic "shud the driver b blamed"( i could see some wrangle 2) nd the other having a reporter using all dat sensational language wen the video focused on a father whose son's corpse the entire crew was searching for(It was as if i was watching a entire spectacle).

As time passed by news chaneels got al wrought up. Focusing on the politicians who proudly speaks through that giant mikes fixed in front of them about the money they decieded to give to those who lost thier beloved ones.Videos even focusing on dat happy chat time of politicians in between dat worrisome environment.

Days Passed By ...This incident was different in different people.. For channels a mere news... For some,one of those hot topics they can talk about .. For some a story wich they can give as an exemplar for d quote "past is past".. For Some( who used thier creativity hard) made it into a jest wich i got as sms.

On the other side i could see people writhe nd some pited for thier misfortune.

Wen people have all those different stories they heard or read from newspapers as hot topics to talk about..there is a father crying for his 4 year old baby whose corpse the entire crew was stil searching for ..

Wen people wrangle about whom to b blamed , the passengers or d driver... we have a mother standing al numb by seeing her 2 daughters all covered in white before her on the other side.

Wen the politicians wre proudly announcing about the money they decided to give, i cud see a man who kept on cursing the god in making him 1 of dose who got saved from dat dreadful incident wich tuk away al 9 of them from his family

I dono wen the politicians wil realize dat thr r sme things money can never buy
I dono wen media wil realize dat victims shud b given thier own space rather interviewing a mother who lost her only daughter to make thier news channel the most sensational one(rather giving importance to that mothers sentiments)
I donno wen people wil realize the value of humanity rather making a jest out of it .

I Never Thought selfishness wud go to such an extent whr society wud start playing with others emotions for tags lik "The Best Media", "The Best Leader", "The Most Sensational News" nd so on..

Al i have to say is I Pity Dem All..

Sunday, October 4, 2009

To Whom Should I Give The Tag ?

I Donno hw restless i became dat day. i dono wen people wil realize dat girls shud b given thier own space.

I Stil rembr dat zippy get together of ours whr i had al ma family frnds nd relatives around.every1 dressed jazzy nd i was having a very gud time over thr with ma long lost cousins nd friends.Jus then ma mom started introducing her relatives (whose name even she was confused with) to me. And d usual cycle begins whr they asked me wthr i noe dem nd i started acting lik "yeah i do rely noe u ". mom kept on introducing dat i really gave her dat zonked look coz i cud see ma mates enjoying themselves nd i was so zealous to join dat hot conversations ;).

After a while a lady .. a stout lady(now i regret talking to her) came in nd introduced herself to me nd i was lik "oh hi!" nd then she started saying her so called personal details lik wht she s doing,whr her husband is,how many children she has nd all.At dis pt of time i rely cudn find anyting wrong coz i thot she ws jus trying to b friendly but den she started speaking about her son(if i rmbr,who s some engineer). she went on like he is an engineer , he is an engineer, he is an engineer nd i was lik k k i understood dat he is 1 ..stil nt undrstandin wt d big deal is in 1 becming an engineer.

I stil remember she asking me very eagerly bot ma futre plans nd u wudn blive she had dat stunning xpression wich asked "what u gonna get by taking ur pg??"( as if i said smthing so awful).She went on asking me questions(plural very plural) wich i nevr xpect from any1 to ask a girl of ma age.From her pt of view even ma graduation was a waste. she started giving me a yap(yes ,dats d best word i cud use) on hw am gonna spoil ma life by taking a post graduation nd you can imagine how restles i wud have become wen she started xplaining how good it is ,to get maried at d age of 20( i repeat at d age of 20).

she had dat ting in her mind dat education is gona ruin a girls life of becming a good wife( i have seen dis caption as wallpapers "education ruined me",never thot sme1 wud actually support it).First i tuk it as jest but den i cud feel how introvert she was.Ma introspection made me realize the fact dat the lady was so intripid on her point of views.

Her Yap Made Me feel dat she is such a zombie dat i gave her dat joyless look expecting her to understand dat i am rely nt intrsted(but dat doesn really seem to effect her coz she went on nd on nd on)..she even justified her vague opinions lik she wudn allow her daughter in law to work(hw i wish dat no one shud ever bcme her daughter-in-law).she even suported her statment by saying dat even her son feels d same(Aww!!!Dat Shows How feeble-Minded dat so called son is).i cud see dat hieght of proudness on her face by saying such a pathetic statment.She even made me feel her idiocy by xpressing her discomfort in a girls independenc.

I stil cudn beliv dat such jerks even xist with such pathetic pt of views.I Stil remember how fatigue i bcme dat day.But Wen i rewinded the entire episode i really got confused in 1 thing
To Whom i shud give d tag "jerkiest of jerks.." The Lady Or Her Son??:d

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Am Stil Yours!!

U said i never understood
wen i knew u misunderstood.
u left me fr such silly reason
nd dats wen i understood d lesson.
wen i walked along the street
i cud hear ma heart beat
each beat had ur name
wished ur heart wud hav dne d same,
stil i wish u to b near
hugging me rite here
saying"baby i love ya more"
wen i noe dats nt gona hapen anymore
stil i hope
stil i dream
Of we being together..
y? every1ask
wen its nt a simple task.
i cnt wipe u from my meomories
wen u left me with mysteries
al i have to say is dat
i am stil yours.